yang d nanti telah tiba...

weehoo!!

at last...aku mempunyai aku punya own lappy....huhuhu

lama nya ku nnt saat ini..

hmmm...as usual aku akan namakan suma gadgets aku..

tp aku blum jumpa nama yang seswai..

mmm....apapa pun thnx to mereka yg terlibat dlm usaha aku mendapatkan lappy ini..

puaasssnyaaaa aty kuh.....weehooo...

O.M.H

owh.my.heart...
dulu ko bilang dak mungkin..
tp kenapa skrg ko bilang mungkin..

owh.my.heart..
dulu ko bilang dak mau yg sama..
tp pastu ko bilang lg bagus kalo sama..

owh.my.heart..
ko pernah bilang 123
skrg ko bilang tujuh sampe sepuluh..
eh, silap..
ko pernah bilang "ya ampun...bolenya org tu begitu, dak pecaya aku bha.."
skrg...nehh...ko bilang "ya ampun...bolenya aku begini"..

owh.my.heart..
skrg aku tanya ko...
biar betul ko nih??
kita nih bukan d hollywood atau k.l.wood..
ko pasti kaineh??

owh.my.heart..
aku kasi ingat ko la aahh..
maybe apa yg ko rasa nih..
last utk beberapa bulan jak nih..
sbb...kenal butul sd aku sama ko nih..

owh.my.heart..
aku kasi ko permission lah..
layan2 jak perasaan ko yah..
cuci2 mata jak lah..
control2 debaranmu..
nnt semua akan perasan
kita jugak yg susah...

owh.my.heart..
aku tau ko sakit..
ya ampun..jan ko pedulik..
lama2 ok juak ko tu...
normal balik...

L.o.v.E

2 hari lalu, aku berkursus d SM Teknik tawau..
Kursus Tugu Budaya Etnik Kreatif Sabah ..
sepanjang kursus ada la jugak berkenalan dgn kwn2 baru yg terdiri drp guru-guru dan juga pelajar sekolah..pastu aku kenal lah ngan satu guru kaunselor...
uishh..cigu nih sd berkhidmat selama 18 tahun sebagai kaunselor...maka sungguh hebat dlm membaca personaliti dan attitude org...
so, mcm2 benda cigu nih dpt dr aura yg aku pantulkan kepadanya...dia bilang lah
then bila dia sentuh pasal cinta...dia bilang cintaku adalah cinta logika...
huh?? aku tanya lah apa maksudnya...
cinta logika nih ialah cinta yg menilai orang dari rupa fizikal..
contohnya, bila nampak org hensem /cantik skit...trus sukak...
bukan lah aku bermaksud aku nih memilih....hehehe
tp cinta aku nih dia bilang sukak melabel atau ada standard tertentu yg aku sd kasi ready utk org yg bakal menjadi milikku...aisehmen...
contohnya...kalo aku sudah bilang aku mok yg tinggi, maka cepatlah aku tertarik dengan org yg tinggi....gtue...
and satu lagi, bila aku sudah menganggap seseorang tu kawan, agak sukar utk aku ada perasaan cinta pada org itu...huhuhu....
bila diingat-ingat balik, mmg betul bha suma yg dia cakap tuh...huhuhu...is it a bad thing??
dia bilang dun worry..i will find somebody yg aku mmg betul2 mau and sayang satu hari nnt...*blush blushh....semoga!!
then, bila sorang cigu lelaki bertanya pasal cintanya plak....kaunselor nih cakap cinta cigu nih cinta main-main...iaitu cinta yg dak pernah serius atau dak akan sampai cinta mati atau selamanya...walaupun cigu tu sd berkahwin, cintanya pada isterinya tidak begitu mendalam...setakat gtu-gtu saja...dan cigu itu tidak menafikan...uishhh...bila nih cigu tanya lagi adakah cinta begini akan jumpa dengan cinta matinya satu hari nnt??...kata pacik kaunselor...owh, tidak akan......damnn!! sedih jugak tue...
then another cigu laki mau tau pasal cintanya pla....maka pacik kaunselor bilang cintanya cinta kepunyaan atau kemilikan....iaitu cinta yg kalo ko sd milik ku, selamanya lah ko milik ku...kalo aku suka ko, ko akan sentiasa bersamaku...dak ble lari....uishhh...mmg betul lah bilang nih cigu...dia cakap dak bulih dia kasi tinggal isterinya walau sekejap....hihihi....

hebat kan pacik kaunselor nih!!....

dancing with the mice

yes...my topic today is about dance...
i have 2 sessions of dance practice, one in the morning and one in the afternoon..
fuhh...energy level at the moment is totally low...i could be falling asleep on the keyboard any moment now...
nothing really interesting happened during both of the practice...however..
when i finally got back home, i know my duty is to prepare dinner, so i went straight into the
kitchen and a bit relieved when i found out that dad ody cook us dinner...hehehe...
so, i wanna check out the sayur that was still on the stove...
at the very moment i lift up the lid, something dark came across the floor fast and went underneath the cabinet....damn i was shocked...
i knew what it was....we called it CT....
immediately i shouted for my dad to come and help me catch CT...
we released si Princy to cover the back of the kitchen while we try to force the CT out..
and that's when i danced with it...aiyoo...i could feel the CT's small jari-jemari jumping up and down my feet trying to make it thru my feet...huhuhu....
unfortunately si Princy pun unable to catch it...haishhhhh....

tomorrow got another dance practice....yoshhh!!

3 days before.......

yup....it's 3 days before nu year!!
the heat of nu year??? nah...i don't feel the heat yet...it's just that i don't think i've done good this year...this twenty-ten...hmmm...it's like a short year for me..nothing much has happened...
maybe thats the reason why i am such a low-spirited person right now..
with no job, trying to figure out how to help my parents making ends meet...really really hope that nxt year is going to be THE year...please God, i know i haven't been the good child of yours lately, i haven't spoken directly to you for maybe a year...but, i am really in big trouble right now, and i really really need your help...please, please give me a sign....

always last minute

fuhh...!!

went shopping with the whole family today...yeah, last minute rite...went to the Pasar Besar Tawau to buy few ingredients we still didn't have...things like kerisik, tomatoes, jalapenos, pineapple and few more...quite alot too...heheh...haven't been to that place for quite some time..just not my preferred location to shop kitchen stuff u know...it's hard to get parking lots too...i might just cancel my plan to shop there if i couldn't find one lot in 15 minutes....hehehe...

then, we went to the Sarawak Cold Storage to buy fish fillets...yeah just to get that one thing...cuz my mom said she only know that place to get the fillets....
finished around the Sabindo town, we went all the way to Giant (my dad pronounce it as jian..haha..he likes to joke around)..we get the rest of the things we needed there...before leaving Giant, i saw one of the newly built shoplot near Giant is going to open very soon..and i recognize the name of the restaurant!! Restoran Maskur II (family soup house)....we are happy cuz, the Maskur number 1 is located too far, but my family just love their famous sup tulang here in Tawau...looks like they're expanding their business...good fer them!! and good fer us too...no need to drive for almost an hour just to eat their sup tulang!!! ngeeeee....

around the corner

hey! it's been 5 months since i last posted in here...=D
just thought that i shud update after a while of silence
well, it's already december and christmas is just around the corner (yey!!)
hoho...i'm so xcited but at the same time a little sad...two of my sisters won't be joining us to celebrate xmas at home...welp, still....need to find the true meaning of christmas this year...
maybe i'll find it by christmas eve...hopefully! = D